You let Karma beat the shit out of you when fuck that... no really, fuck that... feeling bad about being celestial...
Guilt is quite paralyzing. Most of us got some sort of addiction to some sort of destruction of ourselves for not fitting into some dumb predetermined cultural meme.
That goes for the subsets of culture as well as the dominant culture in this society.
What will it cost for you to be yourself? What is it costing you not to be yourself? And what are you willing to lose to gain your soul?